So here’s a little history of my love life.. I have never been in love; not in the way that I expect love to be. Yes, I have had several relationships, but I have never been really in love. I think I will only ever be in love is when I find the one. I’ve had my “first-love-first-boyfriend-type-relationship” and other fillers in my life. But I am searching for that forever-type-love.
A long time ago, I got married at the age of 20, but I think I was just too young. He was in the military living in Japan, and if you know anything about military life, people get married like peanut butter and jelly. It just happens, and it happens fast. I only had known him for 8 months when I said those words “I do.” It obviously didn’t work out because here I am.
Although, I didn’t know much about what it was like to be in love, I was pretty devastated getting divorced. It really took a toll on me, and I felt like the world was going to end. It took me 2 years to be able to trust someone again, for me to feel lovable, to feel worth it, and to be myself again. I can’t thank my friend (who I will not name) enough for helping me get through those tough times, for sticking by me, for loving me unconditionally (even when I was a bitch to him), and for just accepting me. Without him, I don’t think I would have this much faith, hope, and excitement that one day I will meet my one true love.
So the search continues…