The Booty Call…

A little story from the past…

I remember the night like it happened yesterday. I was going out to celebrate my cousin’s birthday when I first met him. He was my cousin’s cousin’s friend, and we immediately locked eyes on each other the whole night. We were going on dates and seeing each other more than once a week. We’d go out to eat, sporting events, and the shooting range. And we also stayed in a lot of the times too. For me I was definitely wanting a relationship, but after a few months we decided to stop seeing each other. I don’t remember exactly why we ended it. Somehow we started up again, but this time we stayed in all the time (Netflix and chill). This time around it was definitely for the booty. It was a year of on and off booty, but the last time we started again I thought it was going to be different. I thought in my mind that if we kept coming back to each other, we should just be together. After we had our trip to Seattle, I asked him where our relationship was going, and he basically told me we were just friends. That point on I knew it was never going to be more. We got into a fight and never talked to each other ever again until about 8 months when I received a text from him. I was in complete shocked to see his name pop up on my phone. I read, “Hey! How are you?” So I replied.

This is what I found out. After we stopped talking, 2 months later he’s in a relationship. In these 6 months of dating her, he goes from GF/BF to “I love you’s” to almost buying a house and moving in together. While he’s telling me all this, all I wanted to do was choke him and say “FUCK YOU!” Are you freaking serious? All I could wonder was, why not me? What was different about her that you gave her a relationship and not me? What did I do wrong? I was hurt, but I never expressed this to him. I had already left those feelings in the past, and I didn’t want to bring them back out.

I am not a man, and I will probably not know all the reasons as to why a man makes the decisions that he does when it comes to relationships. How a man can be with his girlfriend for 8 years and doesn’t know if he wants to marry her? Then a year later he is married with another woman. But I get it! I really do because I have ended relationships knowing that he wasn’t going to be the one. It’s nothing about the person, sometimes it’s just not meant to be.

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