My journey to finding love seemed like it was going on the right track. I had a boyfriend right away after meeting him, he wanted to have a future with me, I did everything I could to make him happy, and I almost had his baby. You would think that I had found love, but I guess I did not. It’s been 2 months now since we’ve broken up, and only sometimes do I ever think about him and how big I would be 4 months pregnant. I didn’t know how honest I wanted to be on my blog, but from the very start I have always been real. If you did not know, I did have a miscarriage and part of the reason as to why we broke up is because of that. I just know that God had other plans for me. It just wasn’t meant to be and let alone bring a baby into this world with him. Everything just happened so quickly in that relationship and how it felt so good for someone to want a future with me. It felt like, “Finally!” I fell in love with the idea of having it all with someone. It seemed like it was finally here for me. Every relationship I’ve been in has always been a learning experience, which I hope it would be. Since then I have picked up some books about life, love, relationships and being a better person. It has really taught me a lot about myself and how I go about relationships and finding love. It will be different the next time.