Keep Me Hidden…

I asked God to keep me hidden while I take a year to heal from my past, figure out my calling, and to start living out my purpose. Well God, you definitely are doing that for me. However, today I wish I wasn’t hidden. I sat in the pews of my church wishing I was finally there. I looked at the couple sitting in front of me with their new baby boy and wished I could be there.

I asked Him in a whisper, “when God, when will it be my turn?

I stopped idolizing marriage, started loving my single season, started healing, started figuring out Justine, beginning to get out of my comfort zone, focusing on my relationship with God, and I appreciate every bit of it, but today was different. I felt loneliness creep in while I sat by myself at church, which is often, even though I’m surrounded by so many. How could I feel lonely? I started looking around for that single guy sitting alone too. Hey look at me, I’m sitting alone also. Maybe he’s the one. God tell him I’m the one. Very silly I know, but today was just one of those days. God knows when I’ll be ready, even I know I’m not prepared just yet.

1 Response

  1. ToniD.

    L❤️VE the transparency “J” and you are not alone. Some days are better than others, but just know & remember God’s timing is the best timing. Think of it this way would you rather have a batch of half done fries or wait a little longer until they are cooked just right? I’d rather you wait a couple of years and know that the work has been complete in you and the man that God has for.
    Enjoy your healing journey process sis, and when those lonely days come remember it won’t be that way always! God’s Mr. Right will be here before you know it.

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