From Before Being Saved

Dating before being saved…

Just A Little Crazy…

Am I crazy or are my feelings legitimate? Sometimes my emotions are uncontrollable and intense. We assume that it’s mother nature’s fault, and sometimes it is and sometimes it’s not. It’s even worse when men say it’s not an excuse. But then my feelings feel real, and I question are my feelings valid? I had an ex-boyfriend who made me feel I needed to apologized for my feelings and every fight was blamed on being a woman. I was confused if I was either right or wrong. I felt sorry that I had these feelings, never understanding if in fact…

The Bookworm…

Books! One of my favorite pastimes; a love for knowledge, a love for imagination, a love for information, a love for definitions, a love for clarity, a love for guidance, a love for words and more. When you meet someone with a common interest in books, it feels different. Before I started my own business, I’ve never met anyone who read books, let alone someone who actually enjoyed it and someone who read the same types of books. Sometimes I wonder, what kind of guys have I been meeting all this time? I had already met the Bookworm about a…

The Cheater, The Cheatee & The Participant…

If you have never been in any of these positions, good for you! I can honestly say I have been of all 3; the cheater, the cheatee and a participant. I’m not proud of any of it, but I think it’s a topic that most people can relate to. I don’t ever feel like it shouldn’t have never happened because all experiences are to be learned from. Would I ever do it again; be a cheater or participant? Probably not, or I hope not to be; I would definitely think twice and a few more times after. I definitely don’t…

Someone Like Me

My personality is kind of wild, spontaneous, aggressive, goes for what she wants, a little out there, social butterfly and just fun when it comes to being around great energy. Although I definitely feel like I’m more of an introvert because I love to be alone, I feel peace in the calm, in the silence, in my own thoughts and in my own world. I don’t mind eating at a restaurant alone or even seeing a movie by myself. I love being around me because I can be myself. I read an article once on introverted extroverts; I guess I…

Friendzoned

Is it really possible to make new friends of the opposite sex without having any sexual intentions? It’s probably one of the reasons why I put guys in the friendzone. If there are no signs of a future or that initial spark then I automatically friendzone them. It is easier for me to put them into that category and then be myself. But in fact, it should be that very reason to have a friendship with someone I want a relationship with. I always hear that you should fall in love with your bestfriend. In my head, I’m like “my…

Recap

My journey to finding love seemed like it was going on the right track. I had a boyfriend right away after meeting him, he wanted to have a future with me, I did everything I could to make him happy, and I almost had his baby. You would think that I had found love, but I guess I did not. It’s been 2 months now since we’ve broken up, and only sometimes do I ever think about him and how big I would be 4 months pregnant. I didn’t know how honest I wanted to be on my blog, but…

When is it my turn for love?

Why? More often then I would like, I have to start over. Why did it not work out this time? What did I do wrong? Why do I have to go through this again? Why? Why? Why? It has been a terrible week for me. I realized I haven’t wrote in 2 months. I had nothing to write about, or I didn’t want to write what was actually going on in my relationship. Now I have something to say about it. It is easy to blame myself for my failed relationship because I always feel like I could have done…

For The Better

It’s kind of funny when you think you know what you want, you’re so very sure about it and then you meet someone that changes you for the better. You think you had made up your mind or already made choices for the future, and then all of a sudden you find yourself wanting more for yourself, for your life with him. I’ve always been the type to just go with the flow growing up; letting life take me and lead me to places and whatever happens, happens. Everything happens for a reason. Although now I know it’s more than…

2 peas in a pod…

You’re never just you anymore when you’re in a relationship. When you go somewhere people are always asking where your significant other is when they see that you’ve come to the party alone. It’s nice to be a part of a 2 piece thing haha. And sometimes it’s like “Oh does he always have to be with me now?” But don’t get me wrong here, I do this a lot to all the couples I know. I even do it to their dogs or their kids haha. Like they should never ever be apart from them ever again. Just kidding.…

Our first fight…

No relationship is perfect, and I should know this. Everyone around me who’s in a relationship are in relationships that aren’t perfect. But I believe otherwise that I could have a perfect relationship. I need to stop because having unrealistic expectations causes unhappiness from my own doings. All I can say is work, work, work, work! Relationships are work. And no one teaches you the ways of a relationship because each person is different. One thing could work from a past relationship, and the same thing wouldn’t work in another relationship. So I’m constantly learning and learning what works in…